Hello. My name is Ain. And this is my story.
It’s only September , yet I’ve decided that 2010 could possibly be the most experienced year in my life.
I’ve survived many battles.
I’ve learned.
I’ve changed.
I’ve lost my bestfriend of 12 years.
I almost lost my car and it will never be the same again.
I almost lost myself in a near-death incident.
And the most recent:
I’ve lost my parents’ trust.
I must be a Wonder Woman then.
I am miles away from being the strongest person on the planet.
I admit, these experiences crush me like a little girl,
happily crossing the road and suddenly got hit by a truck.
Yes, I also have the difficulty to sleep and wake up.
But somehow, somewhere, I managed to gather up some pieces of strength.
I wondered how did that happen.
Then it came to me:
I have God.
My only pillar that I can count on, that I can hold on to.
I can lose everything but I cannot lose God.
I can let everyone leave me but I cannot let God leave me.
I can be far from everyone but I cannot be far from God.
Because the most terrible emptiness is not having God near you,
to guide you,
to love you.
I am so lucky to have both.
Tuhan itu Maha segala.
Sebab itu ada karma,
sebab itu ada redha.
Through the battles I’ve gone through,
I got some,
and I lost some.
Life and humans are more unpredictable than I ever thought they are.
They terrify me, more than ever now.
But I am grateful to say that;
I have never lost a battle without a fight.
I always put up my best fight.
I fight so hard that it doesn’t matter anymore, whether it’ll lead to a good ending or a bad ending.
Because even if it has to be a bad ending, it’s a bad ending with good reasons.
I’ve done my job.
And I believe I’ve done a pretty good one.
Now it’s His turn.
Kun fa ya kun.
I wish each one of you,
the same strength, blessings and happiness that He has granted me with.
If not,
more.
