homework . duhh !

i had a mini meltdown earlier today because despite trying so hard, i just couldn’t get the hang of calculus. it’s already been one weeks of class and i still have so much trouble with the work. the lecturer is a nice guy, but he just wasn’t born to teach. i feel a lot of sympathy for him because he’s so unpopular with the classroom, but i feel a lot more sympathy for myself when i look at all the problem sets i have to complete by the weekend. the questions are probably not very difficult, i’m just such an idiot when it comes to math. i’ve been at this all evening, and i still haven’t budged from the one page i started at.

heart rate after 42 minutes = 68.5 bpm? it took me an hour to read and understand what i had to do, and another hour trying to figure it out, before i finally got songjun to help me with it. even then, we both couldnt really be sure of the answer.
god i hate math so much.
and the guy who wrote my textbook should be shot, because it’s the worst and most incomprehensible textbook i’ve ever come across.
i never thought i’d say this, but add math is so much easier in comparison. especially when you have a good textbook, a good lecturer, a good tutor and Aira.

sigh.

things like calculus make me wish i was back home, far away from evil things like limits and secants and logarithms. but i guess i simply have to keep reminding myself that homework is just homework, and is a very small part of my new life here.

i dont want to cry over calculus ever again.

fenninggg nak muntah !!